what is my life

spending all of today being grumpy about pretty silly things

like best friend stuff
and feeling heartbroken over a girl i have quite the history with (but turned down months ago) now dating some way-too-handsome guy

i am so rarely insecure about my gender and how the way i present myself defies most of its norms
in fact, i actually take great pride in that

but today, i just wish i wasn’t stuck in the middle
stuck in this grey area

it’s just a gloomy grey day